just sometimes.

Sometimes being left handed bothers me because I take notes in pen and smudge them right away.

Sometimes when I clean my car’s windshield I pretend it’s raining.

Sometimes I’m afraid to get old.

Sometimes I’m lonely.

Sometimes there are no coffee filters and I drink tea instead.

Sometimes I can be really forgetful and clumsy and lame.

Sometimes I procrastinate, an insane amount…like with this essay I should be writing.

Sometimes I really suck at keeping up with this little blog.

Sometimes I need a nap not even an hour after I’ve been out of bed.

Sometimes I’m intensely impatient for summer…

Spring break.

Dear body,
It's really neat that you waited to get sick until spring break came...real cute.

Dear bed,
I'm glad I can spend...the entire...day with you. 

Dear rain,
I'm glad you're here today. I like smelling you and hearing you outside my window. It's probably the most comforting thing in the entire world to me.

Dear English,
You're killing me. You're really killing me.

Dear tissues, tea, water, chocolate milk, and toast,
Thanks.

Dear Adele,
Want to trade vocal chords?

Dear Yurtle,
Please please stop growing so big?

Dear yellow,
I know you're just a color...but I really like you.

Dear glasses,
I like wearing you way more than contacts...just not the names I get called when I do!

Dear belly button ring,
I'm glad you're healing! I like you...keep it up buddy.

Headlights and Taillights.

I have never really enjoyed driving, but dislike it even more when it's to be done at night time.

Last night I was driving in the rain, down the 101, from Gilroy to home. The radio was static and I have currently exhausted all my CD's. In fact, I doubt they'll even play for me anymore. 

I normally don't ride without the radio on, but I decided to turn it off and maybe let Jesus speak to me if He wanted. For a while there was nothing. Just me and the road. Then I got to thinking about how pretty the headlights and taillights looked on the wet freeway. Both of their reflections were bright and colorful. Headlights, bright white. Taillights, bright red. Two significant colors to a Christian. Isaiah 1:18 says "Come now, and let us reason together, says the Lord. Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool." Our sins are scarlet. They are bright red. Noticeable. They are the color of taillights, but because of Christs forgiveness and death for us, we are no longer forgotten in the back. We are bright white, shining along Christ, and leading the those who are still in the taillight position. I think I'd like to be a headlight for Jesus. 

 

1 John 1:7

But if we [really] are living and walking in the Light, as He [Himself] is in the Light, we have [true, unbroken] fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses (removes) us from all sin and guilt [keeps us cleansed from sin in all its forms and manifestations].

Little monday letters.

Dear mountains covered by snow surrounding Salinas,
You are so beautiful right now!

Dear self,
I can't believe you only wore a sweater today...

Dear toes,
Thanks so much for not falling off my feet.

Dear phone charger,
You're broken and annoying.

Dear Yurtle,
Please STOP growing??

Dear hair,
Please grow FASTER!

Dear belly button ring,
I like you and will not regret it.

Dear Katrina,
I'm glad I see you everyday at school...I'd be really bored without you.

Dear really good hugs,
Keep em coming.

Dear future husband,
I hope you love coffee like I do.

xo.

Happy Birthday Mommy.

You don't look a day over 22.

I'm glad you are my mom. 

I wouldn't want anyone else...

Thank you for the face, the thick hair, and the skin that tans so easily...I'm still a little bitter about the bad eyesight. 

;) I love you. 

An update.

Okay so this month, and a little but of last month I've been terrible at keeping this little blog of mine running.

I am busy, and a little unplugged (which I'm actually thankful for). 

My life is not so exciting at the moment. 

I currently wake up between 5:30 and 6:00 every morning. I go to school. Some days I go to work. I get home. I run. I eat. I do homework. I go to bed. 

My life. It's thrilling.

I try to get a lot of reading in (um, hello Hunger Games!) 

I try to talk to Yurtle. I try to play my piano and guitar. I try to keep my eyes open and watch some TV with my family...but I can't. 

Sometimes, I fall asleep and don't run, don't eat, and don't do homework. I just go to bed.

But that's okay. I'm learning that I need to simplify my life.

Which is a good thing. I don't need TV, or my laptop. I don't need to read every day. I don't need to have a ton of free time...(just enough to keep my introverted part of myself sane.) 

I just need to do what is asked of me, and a little more. 

I might not be doing something super important with my life at the moment, but because I live for the Lord, it's my job to be the best student, sister, friend, daughter, and babysitter I can be. 

And that's all. 

And I'm working on it. 

xo.

My Wednesday Wishes.

today i wish...

i wish i hadn't slipped in english class..uggs have no grip at all.

i wish that i had cute, shiny, purple hunter rain boots to stomp in puddles with.

i wish my boyfriend would pay his phone bill fast.

i wish somehow my stomach would magically be full.

i wish i wasn't afraid to be alone at school.

i wish everything from anthropologie cost one dollar. 

i wish i had incredible eyesight. 

 i wish doing the right thing was really easy.

i wish i was home under my covers. 

xo.

Today I saw a man fall over on his bike and laugh at himself, and a whole lot of wild turkeys on the track as I ran around it at school.

Oh, and discovered my amazing, three year old, ten dollar boots from old navy have a massive hole in the sole of them. I'm crushed. But will continue to wear them until my socks are hitting the pavement. That's all. Hope you had a beautiful Tuesday. I'm looking forward to Wednesday, because it's supposed to rain.

xo.

Today I realized..

I am: The girl who is intensely loud. Who is thankful my legs carried me 3.56 miles on a nice run this afternoon. Who paints my nails too much. Who likes words like "lovely" and "wonderful". Who is awe struck when prayers get answered...even the baby prayers. Who will not be defeated. Who thinks it's the biggest let down in the world when I pour my cereal in the bowl, and discover there is no milk. Who would eat In-N-out for breakfast, lunch, and dinner every meal, of every day for the rest of my life...but I refuse to to set foot near Mc. Donalds. Who really likes the idea of high heels, but is afraid to wear them because I'm already way above average in the height department for a woman. Who can be cheered up by a four minute Beyonce song. The girl who has shot a bullet from a BB gun into my moms wall, cracked our kitchen tile with a car window shatter thing, broken plenty of faucets, plates, cups, mugs, bowls, wine glasses...etc. The girl who is extremely blonde and a huge air head.

And the girl who is a complete sinner. The girl who NEEDS Jesus's grace EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. And the girl who GETS it!! Woah.

xo.

I'm happy.

Because..
It's Friday.
My baby's tank is clean.
My room is clean.
I ate bacon.
I know I'll get homework done this weekend.
I finished The Hunger Games book one!
I get to run Friday, Saturday, AND Sunday.
I can take all the naps I want.
I have my soccer pants.
I really like water, and it's really good for my body.
It's really warm outside.
It's spring and I can start wearing intensely bright colors.
My hair is fading back to blonde!