Oceans.

go down to the sea in ships, Who do business on great waters; They have seen the works of the LORD, And His wonders in the deep.
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Because I'm a California girl, I've grown up spending a big chunk of time at the beach. Also, because I have two older sisters to keep up with, a lot of that beach time was spent in the water. Honestly, I'm not a huge fan of swimming in the ocean, but I have never let fear, or "what ifs" keep me from having fun or living my life. There's something about the ocean that gets me. I've always been completely awestruck by it. Maybe because it's huge, or powerful, or unknown. Maybe because I find it completely beautiful. I could sit and listen to waves for hours on end, or breath in salty breaths and squish my toes in the sand all day. I love it.

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Those lyrics are from the song Oceans by Hillsong United. I heard this song a few months ago, and thought it was amazing. It was one of those songs that gave me the "dang it, I wish I had written that myself!" feeling. Despite knowing that it was amazing, I didn't really relate to it. Not until now, when my life currently feels like it's trapped in the ocean. Stuck under waves, being knocked around, in the great unknown, where my feet are totally failing, and I don't know what's next. Maybe it stems from pride and not liking help, or just a plain heart full of sin, but it's hard to keep my eyes on Jesus when oceans rise. It's hard to let my soul rest in His embrace daily. It's hard to let myself be His every second of every day. It's hard to choose joy. Sometimes I feel guilty about that, but then I remember that His grace really does abound in the deepest water. When I'm stuck under waves with my eyes not on Him, He is sovereign and exactly what I need, and never fails me. Even though I can't see over the waves, He will mold my heart and lead me where my trust has zero borders and grow my faith. Today I'm thankful for that.