It feels like i've been crying for about two hours...oh wait!

Today has been a sad sad sad day.

Long story short, Yurtle got a new home.

He had been getting FAR too big for his tank, and I had no room to put a bigger one.

He wasn't eating much, and I could tell he was lonely. 

On the way to take him to the pet store, I was totally fine..and I was fine when the nice man put him in his new tank with his new buds, and I was fine walking out of the store and when I said "Have a nice day."

But I was not fine in my car.

I had no idea, and didn't expect it at all...but burst into SOBS.

How embarrassing. 

There was a man and his son in the car next to me who asked if I was okay, and I had to explain I was like this because I just gave away my TURTLE.

 Yes, I was embarrassed. 

I cried the whole way home, and while I cleaned out his tank, and when one of my sisters texted me a "hahaha" text, and when my brother asked about it, and because of this post, and these pictures.

I feel guilty and like a terrible momma. 

I'll be going back to check on Yurtle...maybe next week, or tomorrow...whatever one comes first. 

I know he'll be okay. 

 

My day..

For the past week, I have been tossing and turning and not sleeping at all. 

 Because of that, I'm so wired on coffee and green tea, exhausted, have the giggles, and don't really want to nap! But if I did...I'm thinking I'd be asleep for a thousand years.

That is all.

Tuesday happy list.

15 things that make me terribly happy. 

1. Cereal.

2. Reading weird tweets on twitter. 

3. Pretty things.

4. "Accidentally" (yeah right) listening to Christmas music in May.

5. Driving my clean yellow car with the sunroof down.

6. Hearing words like "I love you".

7. Dreaming really big.

8. Wearing socks.

9. Having only eight more days until summer!

10. Drinking a lot of water.

11. Remembering to take my vitamins.

12. Black and white pictures.

13. Really white teeth.

14. Wearing black.

15. How I met your mother...

xo!

 

Monday letteres.

Dear self,
I'm in no hurry, but really? I'm ready to see my future magically.

Dear jokes I tell,
I don't see how I'm the only one who laughs at you...no matter what people say, you're really funny.

Dear bright green apples,
I'm obsessed with you.

Dear school,
I can't even wait until you're over...forever...two more years, one more semester, and nine more days...but as of now I'm really just excited right now for the nine more days.

Dear belly button ring,
Thank you so much for healing already! It no longer feels like I have barbed wire shoved in my stomach when I do something so simple as just breathing. 

Dear skin,
I like that you're getting tan and it's not even July!

Dear sleep,
PLEASE come back?! Where in the world has this come from?

Dear Wednesday,
I'm glad you're my Fridays and I'm stoked for you! 

Mommas day.

Pretty much all I want in life is to be a mom exactly like my mom. Everyone says they have the best one, but sorry...mine wins. She's secretly an angel. 

Happy mothers day mom! I love you always. 

Summer is coming, Amen!

Happy weekend, xo.

Recently in pictures.

 cowgirls.

Siren Herbie Keebler Mann is coming into my life in a few weeks. He is precious. 

 Minors.

Un-sister.

 Broslobkabob

 He's famous.

 "Please sign ma boots"

Hottie Hunter Hayes.

the end. 

have a lovely weekend.

just sometimes.

Sometimes being left handed bothers me because I take notes in pen and smudge them right away.

Sometimes when I clean my car’s windshield I pretend it’s raining.

Sometimes I’m afraid to get old.

Sometimes I’m lonely.

Sometimes there are no coffee filters and I drink tea instead.

Sometimes I can be really forgetful and clumsy and lame.

Sometimes I procrastinate, an insane amount…like with this essay I should be writing.

Sometimes I really suck at keeping up with this little blog.

Sometimes I need a nap not even an hour after I’ve been out of bed.

Sometimes I’m intensely impatient for summer…

Spring break.

Dear body,
It's really neat that you waited to get sick until spring break came...real cute.

Dear bed,
I'm glad I can spend...the entire...day with you. 

Dear rain,
I'm glad you're here today. I like smelling you and hearing you outside my window. It's probably the most comforting thing in the entire world to me.

Dear English,
You're killing me. You're really killing me.

Dear tissues, tea, water, chocolate milk, and toast,
Thanks.

Dear Adele,
Want to trade vocal chords?

Dear Yurtle,
Please please stop growing so big?

Dear yellow,
I know you're just a color...but I really like you.

Dear glasses,
I like wearing you way more than contacts...just not the names I get called when I do!

Dear belly button ring,
I'm glad you're healing! I like you...keep it up buddy.

Headlights and Taillights.

I have never really enjoyed driving, but dislike it even more when it's to be done at night time.

Last night I was driving in the rain, down the 101, from Gilroy to home. The radio was static and I have currently exhausted all my CD's. In fact, I doubt they'll even play for me anymore. 

I normally don't ride without the radio on, but I decided to turn it off and maybe let Jesus speak to me if He wanted. For a while there was nothing. Just me and the road. Then I got to thinking about how pretty the headlights and taillights looked on the wet freeway. Both of their reflections were bright and colorful. Headlights, bright white. Taillights, bright red. Two significant colors to a Christian. Isaiah 1:18 says "Come now, and let us reason together, says the Lord. Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool." Our sins are scarlet. They are bright red. Noticeable. They are the color of taillights, but because of Christs forgiveness and death for us, we are no longer forgotten in the back. We are bright white, shining along Christ, and leading the those who are still in the taillight position. I think I'd like to be a headlight for Jesus. 

 

1 John 1:7

But if we [really] are living and walking in the Light, as He [Himself] is in the Light, we have [true, unbroken] fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses (removes) us from all sin and guilt [keeps us cleansed from sin in all its forms and manifestations].